登陆注册
20030000000108

第108章 Chapter XLVI. Nil Desperandum.(1)

No horror of her solitude, no melancholy recollections, no dread of the future disturbed Sydney's mind. The one sense left in her was the sense of fatigue. Vacantly, mechanically, the girl rested as a tired animal might have rested. She saw nothing, heard nothing; the one feeling of which she was conscious was a dull aching in every limb. The moon climbed the heavens, brightened the topmost leaves of the trees, found the gloom in which Sydney was hidden, and cheered it tenderly with radiant light. She was too weary to sleep, too weary even to shade her face when the moonbeams touched it. While the light still strengthened, while the slow minutes still followed each other unheeded, the one influence that could rouse Sydney found her at last--set her faint heart throbbing--called her prostrate spirit to life again.

She heard a glad cry of recognition in a child's voice:

"Oh, Sydney, dear, is it you?"

In another instant her little pupil and playfellow of former days was in her arms.

"My darling, how did you come here?"

Susan answered the question. "We are on our way back from the Palace, miss. I am afraid," she said, timidly, "that we ought to go in."

Silently resigned, Sydney tried to release the child. Kitty clung to her and kissed her; Kitty set the nurse at defiance. "Do you think I am going to leave Syd now I have found her? Susan, I am astonished at you!"

Susan gave way. Where the nature is gentle, kindness and delicacy go hand-in-hand together, undisturbed by the social irregularities which beset the roadway of life. The nursemaid drew back out of hearing. Kitty's first questions followed each other in breathless succession. Some of them proved to be hard, indeed, to answer truly, and without reserve. She inquired if Sydney had seen her mother, and then she was eager to know why Sydney had been left in the garden alone.

"Why haven't you gone back to the house with mamma?" she asked.

"Don't ask me, dear," was all that Sydney could say. Kitty drew the inevitable conclusion: "Have you and mamma quarreled?"

"Oh, no!

"Then come indoors with me."

"Wait a little, Kitty, and tell me something about yourself. How do you get on with your lessons?"

"You dear foolish governess, do you expect me to learn my lessons, when I haven't got you to teach me? Where have you been all this long while? _I_ wouldn't have gone away and left _you!_"

She paused; her eager eyes studied Sydney's face with the unrestrained curiosity of a child. "Is it the moonlight that makes you look pale and wretched?" she said. "Or are you really unhappy? Tell me, Syd, do you ever sing any of those songs that I taught you, when you first came to us?"

"Never, dear!"

"Have you anybody to go out walking with you and running races with you, as I did?"

"No, my sweet! Those days have gone by forever."

Kitty laid her head sadly on Sydney's bosom. "It's not the moonlight," she said; "shall I tell you a secret? Sometimes I am not happy either. Poor papa is dead. He always liked you--I'm sure you are sorry for him."

Astonishment held Sydney speechless. Before she could ask who had so cruelly deceived the child, and for what purpose, the nursemaid, standing behind the chair, warned her to be silent by a touch.

"I think we are all unhappy now," Kitty went on, still following her own little train of thought. "Mamma isn't like what she used to be. And even my nice Captain hasn't a word to say to me. He wouldn't come back with us; he said he would go back by himself."

Another allusion which took Sydney by surprise! She asked who the Captain was. Kitty started as if the question shocked her. "Oh dear, dear, this is what comes of your going away and leaving us!

You don't know Captain Bennydeck."

The name of her father's correspondent! The name which she vaguely remembered to have heard in her childhood! "Where did you first meet with him?" she inquired.

"At the seaside, dear!"

"Do you mean at Sandyseal?"

"Yes. Mamma liked him--and grandmamma liked him (which is wonderful)--and I gave him a kiss. Promise me not to tell! My nice Captain is going to be my new papa."

Was there any possible connection between what Kitty had just said, and what the poor child had been deluded into believing when she spoke of her father? Even Susan seemed to be in the secret of this strange second marriage! She interfered with a sharp reproof. "You mustn't talk in that way, Miss Kitty. Please put her off your lap, Miss Westerfield; we have been here too long already."

Kitty proposed a compromise; "I'll go," she said, "if Syd will come with me."

"I'm sorry, my darling, to disappoint you."

Kitty refused to believe it. "You couldn't disappoint me if you tried," she said boldly.

"Indeed, indeed, I must go away. Oh, Kitty, try to bear it as I do!"

Entreaties were useless; the child refused to hear of another parting. "I want to make you and mamma friends again. Don't break my heart, Sydney! Come home with me, and teach me, and play with me, and love me!"

同类推荐
  • 玉堂漫笔

    玉堂漫笔

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。
  • 删定止观

    删定止观

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
  • 君臣上

    君臣上

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。
  • 肉攫部

    肉攫部

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。汇聚授权电子版权。
  • 梵女首意经

    梵女首意经

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。
热门推荐
  • 阴阳界之斩魂

    阴阳界之斩魂

    一万年前,大陆各国林立,战火不休,哀魂遍野,百姓生活于水火,苦不堪言。惹得天神震怒,降下天罚,大火连烧数月,亡魂无数。战争停止,却只得夜夜鬼哭狼嚎,大陆一阵恐慌。幸得大能力者,施展大神通,大陆一分为二,由一神之屏障所隔,始称"阴阳界“。
  • 赤炼军刀

    赤炼军刀

    我时常想,是什么力量,让他们可以忘记自己,可以用生命和青春去走一条无法确定的路。我没有答案,我只是感受到一种灵魂的力量。他时弱时强,却始终存在,犹如不灭的灯火。直到很久以后我才明白是为什么,因为,他们是军人,中国军人!他们的牺牲、勇敢和坚韧都来自同一种情怀——忠诚!他们拿着武器,向前冲,也许回不来,也许回来后不再是从前的自己,但这一切都无关紧要,因为信念在执着的燃烧;他们扛着沙袋,向前跑也许会累到,也许打最后也没人知道他们的名字,但这一切都不甚关键,因为责任在内心深藏;他们挺着胸膛在原地,也许会疲惫,也许会经历无法预知的狂风和骤雨,但这一切都无需渲染,因为理想在血液中流淌。
  • 罪恶之城

    罪恶之城

    背负着沉重的期望,那身具恶魔和精灵血脉的少年毅然走向毁灭与重生的位面战场。放不下的执念支撑着他踏过熔岩,冲破深冰,更在绝域战场中纵横杀戮,只为打倒遥遥前方那个巍巍身影。终有一日,他驻足插刀,放眼四顾,却已茫茫不见敌手。原来曾经的巍峨绝峰,已在脚下。这个家族血管中流的每一滴血,都充满了罪恶和肮脏的东西。他们是所有矛盾的集合:他们热情,他们冷酷;他们善于记忆,他们经常遗忘;他们忠于梦想,他们随时妥协;他们愿与圣徒为伴,他们总和魔鬼合作;他们冷静,他们疯狂。他们是天使,他们也是魔鬼。所以我爱他们,我恨他们。
  • 无能皇帝:遇上昆仑小仙女

    无能皇帝:遇上昆仑小仙女

    她是l国有名的考古学家和专业冒险家,喜欢各种古玩。他是l国古代的皇帝,当然是一位有“尊严”的,不近女色的皇上。可是当遇见她就狼性大发。“我可爱,动人的皇后,过来给夫君抱抱亲亲”
  • 疯狂的二次元

    疯狂的二次元

    被陨石砸中的夏日,进入白色空间,从天而降宝箱改变了他人生。(故事纯属虚构)
  • 大炼药师

    大炼药师

    匹夫无罪,怀璧其罪,一个衣食无忧的少年,因为家传心法而惨遭灭门。在不断的逃亡中成长,征服。神秘的预言师,恐怖的诅咒师,高贵的炼药师。以替天行道为己任的大梵天,传承古老的落霞宫背后隐藏着什么?当修炼到最高层次又会是什么?一场惊天大阴谋正在上演筑基--问道--凝神--聚气--结丹--成婴--化神--生死化境--化无--窥天--涅槃
  • 莲华似景

    莲华似景

    初逢,她扎着一头简单的马尾,半蹲在草地上,轻抚着萌莫毛茸茸的白毛,并没有注意到不远处的杨树后静静观望的他.....夏莲安一直以为,她的一生,不过是从“日出”到“日落”,安然的度日,平凡而又简单的过完她闲适的日子,直到......“我好像不认识你。”肯定的语气,夏莲安望着两人交握的手,脑中有一瞬间的片段残缺。“嗯......我认识你就好。”白莫景支着下巴作沉思状,语气平稳,面色平静,乘着夏莲安又一次愣怔的时候,不着痕迹的勾了勾嘴角。
  • 神的天空

    神的天空

    大地崩塌,远古的遗迹重见天日!血水翻滚,来自远古海洋的霸主肆意地吞噬着人群!雷霆阵阵,神话中的生物再次降临,主宰天空!疯狂的时代只有疯子才是正常人,是在这混乱的时代走向灭亡,还是在进化的十字路口奋力怒吼?来吧,将整个世界作为终极猎场,只有强者才能活下来!
  • 笑争天

    笑争天

    命分强弱,运分好坏。少年陆笑生,天生金乌足,背有二十四眼,至强命格,克死族裔六十三名,偌大家族仅剩妹妹陆莲花相依为命,却因种种际遇,踏上江湖纷争,巧借星辰大海,终成临天仙人。
  • 赛尔号之终极决战

    赛尔号之终极决战

    简介(●—●)安卡第一次写书,有不好的地方还请大家告诉我,我会改进的。简介→赛小息他们接受了新的任务,进入海盗基地,黑暗战联被索伦森召唤苏醒,挑起战神风波,SPT小队误打误撞的看见了魔君索伦森,他们躲在了石头后面呼叫了罗杰船长,却被索伦森发现,战神联盟因为营救赛小息他们而陷入危机……